my life sucks right now.

everything i do seems to make things worse.

why am i bad with relationships??

okay...so london is a freaking blast. School here is pretty much a breeze. I'm beginning work at St. Mary's for independent study. I'm really excited for this opportunity but sometimes personal things just slaps your confidence a little.

It's kind of hard to put this into words. But lately i've gotten this impression of being a bad boyfriend. I just can't shake the feeling that lately i'm doing things wrong. Like i'm not talking enough or sharing enough. I dunno....maybe it's one of those relationship things that's going on. Roommates and i have clicked really well which is a really good thing but haven't gotten to that point where sharing relationship venting doesn't seem awkward or egotistic.

One of the things alluding to this whole rocky thing is currenty lisa and some of her roommates are at Avenue Q (theater production) right now. And I had expressed an interest in going with. Laid down for a nap after i had gotten back from class and slept just a little to long. Woke up to find out that they had went and purchased tickets without me. Was kinda figuring she would kinda wake me up when they went. Oye....sorry....just had to get that out there.

*EDIT* Above comment was made without looking at the entire picture. I was acting like a little boy and put lisa in a negative light. I never thought about the fact that lisa and the girls she went with had alot of fun and i didn't have to be there. I didn't think she and i could go see it later with being just as fun and the show being just as funny. *END EDIT*


Hope everyone is having a blast. I miss everyone. Although having aim is nice....just the time change is kinda spotty for chatting.


ps...the search for the Fiesty Goat contiunes. Rumored locations will be spotted in the near future.


pss. 'Care packages' are assembled and ready to be shipped. Just the postal stuff is being worked out alone with prices. Saturday is great for shipping so things will be sent out sat.

hopefully the trailer is there.... http://download.ifilm.com/qt/portal/2773266_300.mov

amazing...






ps. sorry for my previous post. I deleted it because when rereading it the next day....pretty much thought "i sound like a complete goober."

SO!! Long time in posting!!!

The hunt for the fiesty goat contiunes!!!

The sights are amazing around the flats. Everyone that we have encountered has be extremely nice to us and have helped anywhere they can. Surprisingly we mix in pretty good.....until we open our mouths and the famous american accent comes out. Hahahaha well everything is going well...started classes today which was pretty wierd. Meeting and interacting with british kids has been an interesting experience. Some of the group has surprisingly developing a twing in our voices and the influences of words is beginning to become noticable. oye!

I miss everyone. It's easier because we have access to the internet basically twenty four/ seven. But the connection is unstable at some times so it's a roll of the dice.

Have already put a bottle of absinthe under the table and let me tell you there were some interesting results. That's a story for in person. sssssssoooooooooo gooooodddddddd.

Ps....pubs are open on sunday.....oohhh that's a good time!!

Okay i gotta go for now...talk to you guys later!!!

~John'o

BUSINESS IS ABOUT TO PICK UP!!!

You guessed it right ladies and gentlemen...the XWA is on it's way BACK to the ring!!! After hard work, cursing heavily at rust, King King insulting DMX and Mean Jean Estridge very 2 seconds, battling armies upon armies of ants and other furious bugs...THEY DID IT!!! (not forgetting the pile of poop that was oddly placed)

Members of the XWA battled against impossible odds to acheive what once was just a dream. It took some heavy lifting and tenacious effort but good ol Abraham is on his way to being put back together. Once pieces where recused from a terrible horrible prison, it seemed that Abraham was in rough shape. But with great love, the XWA crew began the tedious process of reconstruction. With quick thinking Beast and DMX were able to solve what was believed to be the most daunting task...color coordinating the base pieces of the ring. But they were able to break the code and set up the correct boards with it's corresponding posts in record time!!!

Now the greatest challenge standing infront of rebuilding the ring is working through rusted bolts and other minor obsticules. But their spirit is unbreakable and with the support of from the billions of XWA fans...it will only be a matter of time before Abraham is up and THE XWA is back doing what they do best. Beating the hell outta each other!!

ARE....YOU....READY?????????????????????


XWA 4 LIFE!!!

not going to lie...i have the best friends ever. And i am never again going to try and match jeff in drinking jack daniels. defiantly learned my lesson.

Have you ever had one of those nights were you just laid in bed and really couldn't sleep. And your mind is zipping from one weird subject to the next without any hint of slowing? Well that happened to me a couple nights ago (maybe because of the drunk apples to apples).

Because i'm a dork, I think about psychology. This sounds weird but it's what does the trick. It is truly amazing of how in-dept the human mind can get. I truly believe that there is a great difference between what we term as the mind and brain. Your mind is the key to your personality, beliefs, sense of responsibilities, etc. It is something were your fears and joys lie, where you are constantly battling with demons of the past or perceived future. In layman's terms: it is who you are.

Your brain is something that I consider the whole enchilada. The brain encompasses everything ranging from logic, reasoning, how to change a tire, and your mind. Although it can be referred to more as academic thinking process. The functions of the brain is something that you use in practically everyday situations, e.g. work or school. I believe that the brain cannot function without the mind, thus the opposite of that, the mind cannot function without the brain. It is considerately remarkable of how unique but similar each persons brain/mind is. To clarify, if this understood. I do believe that the mind and brain can be classified as two different labled traits but they are one and the same. You use both to perform in day to day circumstances as they are dependent on each other to make up a whole. (If you don't understand please let me know so i can try and explain it better.)

This is why i have a great respect for actors. Each time they take to the stage to deliver a monologue and slip in their characters mindset, they are using a basic form of psychology. I think of theater as applied psychology. I suggest going to see shows put on by University of Indianapolis because i hear they are amazing!

You Are 48% Evil

You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side. Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

so....the party at ricky's and ilya's place was freaking awesome!! except for the whole getting sick part. ewy! BUT STILL FREAKING AWSEOME!! even though according to jeff, I'm just extra credit. hahahaha

Date:	2006-04-18 14:54
Subject:	thoughts on paper
Security:	Public
Mood:	flirty
Music:	Red Vs. Blue

;disclaimer; soooo.....it's kinda been awhile since i've written anything besides research papers so I might be a bit rusty so hang with me. haha

Finally it is beginning to get warm outside but not too warm. Personally I like the semi-warm weather with a nice cool breeze. To me that just feels good as your walking through grass or dodging crazy pyscho bicycle riders. I have been feeling bad recently, as I have been concentrating more and more on my work and other fraternal things then hanging out with my friends.

My friends do mean alot to me but with some I feel that i've lost pretty much all communication with some. Some of that is my fault but it takes two or maybe i haven't noticed that since i've been caught up in my little psych world. I love my major to death and feel that i could do some great, wonderful things with it. But if itsn't freaking time consuming. I actually got to hang out with my brothers from the XWA. Sitting around on the porch, drinking a beer while smoking a cigar talking about old times and new. Making fun of eacher and other general random stuff we used to do. It just felt really good and I really didn't want to leave.

That saturday night really showed me how much life does mean to me. I don't want to go through life looking down anymore but want to start looking up. Because when you are constantly looking down you miss sooo much except that if you forgot to tie your shoe in the morning. Hey, it's happened to even the best of us so PPBBBHHH!!!!! Speaking of not tieing shoes...what the heck happened to all the flamingo's around here?? Haha wo0t for being random.




p.s. Josh Stark and I are totally awesome at beer-pong.

Date:	2006-02-23 11:12
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EMILY IS PREGNANT!!! OOOOOOOOOOHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's what happens when let them high school boys a little too close....

And i saved the trobule of looking up babynames:

http://www.babynamesworld.com

I know i'm going to recieve guff about this but here is my prediction for the 2008 Presidental Race:

Democrat Nominee: Hillary Clinton (Donkeys)

Republican Nominee: Condelezza Rice (Elephants)

(you may not agree with it and that's okay. please tell me your opions. i'm a sucker for polictal and debating)



!!!!!SPOILER ALERT!!!

!!!!!REVEALED WINNER OF 2008 PRESIDENTAL RACE!!!!









!!!PREDICTED WINNER IS.....



LADIES AND GENTLEMEN.....your NEW...President of the United States of America..



FOURTY-FOURTH PRESIDENT HILLARY RODHAM CLINTON!!!!!!!




alrighty kiddies...lets hear what you got...

Okay...

I am sick and very much fed up with asshole room mates. So far...i think i've had the worst luck as far where getting room mates are concerned. I have rolled over time and time again to try to appease past room mates as I thought it was a poor reflection upon myself as a person for them wanting to leave or switch rooms. NO MORE!!! I've had it with bogus and bullshit reasons for them either a) asking me to leave or b) trying to guilt trip me to leave. This time I am going to take a stand and deliver a grand "FUCK YOU!" I am going no where....being a psychology major (not to toot my own horn) is hard and stressful with really no real time to sit down and actually enjoy myself.
I am totally grateful for the times I have been able to kick back and relax with the best friends this great earth can offer. I really can't express how much I appreciate you guys. This time i am NOT going to sit back. I've been pushed too far, this time i am going to push back and I will stand my "Egoism Philosophy." College isn't for the weak hearted and for people here to sit naked in bean bag chairs eating cheetos everyday!




(sorry my first post back is a rant but it need to be said)

No matter what anyone says, you can always turn back on your current road in life, as with anything there are going to be huge obstackes to over come. But with proper support and confidence, anything can happen or you can accomplish. People say that there is always a glass ceiling above them. Bullshit. I say that glass ceiling is self-imposed. Placed there by a person's doubt. It might be hard to do but believe in yourself and know that you can achieve as much as your mind allows you too. I think that once a person recognizes they are traveling down the wrong path in life and make the tremendous leap to take another path, deserves some respect.


Remember ~there isn't nothing that you can't accomplish or do but the only things that you allow yourself to achieve in life. It's your only life, do what you want with it~

HAHAHA!! So it looks like the Patriots got BONED by the Bronco's last night!! So here's to all you fair-weather Patriot fans. YOU GOT HOSED!!! that's you get for being a little prissy girly girl's. And don't start whinning that the officals was against you or so n' so was injured. Patriots got beat fair and square. If you were a true Pat's fan, you'd take the lose in stride but most of you aren't. So get off your high horse and start munching on some grass. HAH!!


SuperBowl Prediction: Panthers VS Colts

( I am PANTHERS FAN!! and hope they beat the Bears tonight)

This is the Ultimate Showdown, the Ultimate Destiny.





Is it just me or did Steve over use "HAHA! DANGLY PARTS" tonight???

What kind of disease are you? John Chapman:
John Chapman is caused by monkeys.	John Chapman disease causes immediate spontaneous combustion. John Chapman can only be cured by quitting your job and becoming a canadian elvis impersonator.
Name?

nothing screams hardcore than about 6 hours of Axis and Allies while waiting for test results and other googy stuff to happen. but it really sucks because intermediate psych students and some others unlucky one's have to remain here until tuseday while the rest of the school goes on Thanksgiving Break.

50 Things You May Have Not Known About Me
After you're done, repost and erase my answers and replace them with your own. Enjoy!

1. What is your middle name?
-- Edward

2. What color underwear are you wearing now?
-- grey

3. What are you listening to right now?
-- Listening too Boondocks on AdultSwim

4. What are the last 2 digits in your phone number?
-- 83

5. What was the last thing you ate?
-- GOlD FISH!!!

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
-- Reddish Red

7. How is the weather right now?
-- welll, it's cold and rainy outside....and damn cold

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
-- Jessica because she was drunk and wanted to listen to my voice-mall

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
-- How they present themselves

10. Favorite type of Food?
-- LASUANA!!

11. Do you drink?
-- Everyone once in a while.

12. Do you smoke?
-- stressful situtations and around friends

13. Ever get so drunk you don’t remember what you did?
-- Only once

14. Hair color?
-- Brown

15. Eye color?
-- Brown

16. Do you wear contacts?
-- nope

17. Favorite Holiday?
-- ...maybe Halloween

18. Favorite Month?
-- November

19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
-- Nope... kinda need a reason to cry

20. What was the last movie you watched?
-- Tommy Boy

21. Favorite Day of the Year?
-- Septmeber 3

22. Are u too shy to ask someone out?
-- Maybe....kinda forgot

23. If you can say something to someone right now what would it be?
-- you look FABOULUS!!!!

24. Hugs or Kisses?
-- Hugs

25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
-- chocolate

26. Do you want your friends to respond?
-- Ya, you know....kinda sure...if they are up to it

29. What books are you reading?
-- All sorts...yay for required psych reading!!

30. Piercing?
-- nope

31. Favorite Movie?
-- Probably maybe...Tommy Boy or ClockWork Orange. Ohhhh that's a great great movies.

32. Favorite baseball Team?
-- what is this baseball you speak of???

33.What were you doing before this??
-- watching Robot Chicken

34. Any pets?
-- Dog...she lives in Carmel... I MISS YOU!!!

35. aim?
-- who doesn't??

36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
-- buttered bitch!

37. Dogs or cats?
-- Dogs

38. Favorite Flower?
-- Willow

39.Have you ever been caught doing something you weren’t supposed to??
-- WHOOPS!!!!

40. Are you taken or single?
-- oh i certainly taken....sexy

41.Have you ever loved someone?
-- Ohh yaa.....everyone does

42. Who would you like to see right now?
-- the list is greatly long....

43. Are you still friends with your ex’s?
-- Well, don't think so...it's kinda tough

44. Have you ever fired a gun?
-- Yes, once... and i want to again!

45. Do you like to travel by plane?
-- very fun!

46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
-- right

47. If you could be with someone right now, who would it be??
-- Deffently Erica...would like to see her smile

48. How many pillows do you sleep with?
-- 2

49. Are you missing someone?
-- yes

50. Do you have a Tattoo?
-- nope! not that you could see one if i indeed got one

Date:	2005-11-09 13:24
Subject:	BO YEAH!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	chipper
Music:	Green Day!

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don't you love it how Republicans are rated on the bottum next to Nazi's?? bwahahahahahahaha!!!!